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Mashah Testimonies

Many have given testimony of the wonderful work of the Lord through Mashah ministry sessions.  

 


Experiencing the love of the Father

Forgiveness and the Father's Love...

I did not have a very good relationship with my father during my teen years...I was rebellious...he was very hard hearted towards me.  It caused me to make some devastating life choices because of my need for love and affection.... The more I allowed Jesus to define who I was and not my relationships or situations I began to understand the deeper meaning of loving unconditionally and the power of blessing those who persecute you.  Once I was able to practice forgiveness as a life style and learn to bless I saw changes.  They didn't happen overnight...but they did begin to change between my father and I. 

I started to look for ways to bless him and love and honor him the way that Jesus was showing me.  The total healing and restoration took place...when my father presented me one morning with a beautiful crystal necklace.  As he presented this to me, he began to speak the sweetest words I have ever heard from him.  He told me how much he loved me, how much he loved having me as a daughter, how much he needed me in his life.  

I started to tell my father that I didn't deserve such a wonderful gift.  But as I began to say this, I heard the voice of MY FATHER (God) say, how much He loved me, how much He loved having me as His daughter, how much He desired me.  He told me that it was His desire to bless me with this lavish gift of love.  What a lavish gift of love from my earthly and Heavenly Father.  This is what forgiveness and blessing do in our lives.  It brings about restoration.  All the years the locust stole have been restored and multiplied with blessing.

Nightmares from Past Experiences and Emotional Healing

Through Mashah Ministry I came to know by experience God’s love for me and His amazing desire for His sons and daughters to be free.  He has set me free from awful things in my past…He is still working on me but wonderful progress has been made…that I know may have taken much longer had it not been for this ministry.  For anyone dealing with any nightmares or even bad dreams from their past, Mashah Ministry is a safe place to wake up out of those things that have negative effects on us and have Jesus himself love on you and set you free.

A few weeks before a Prayer and Care (now Mashah) team retreat,  I began individual treatment with a therapist.  I told him the following: 

“I am tired of my horrific and frequent nightmares.  I have had them since 1995 with only intermittent breaks. I am tired of battling my own feelings of shame andguilt.  I am always trying to justify my own existenceby working.” He listened to my nightmares during the first session and commented, “So your emotional reality is violence and loss.”  The second session we talked about my mother not wanting children, me included, and the sadness I feel still.  The only way I knew to try to earn her approval and affection was to be helpful, and that is the only way I knew to relate to other people also. I returned home much more aware of the sadness and my longing for a mother. 

When ministry time came at the Prayer and Care retreat, I told the group about the sadness I could not shake and my longing for a mother. We went to a scene when I was 3 or 4 years old and had been left in Maine with relatives, feeling abandoned, while my mom went to Europe for the summer. I asked Jesus what he wanted me to know about that time. I saw Him standing near me, not saying anything, just letting me know He had not left me alone and that he was sad for how abandoned I felt.  Then He showed me that He thought of me before He made the world and that I was in His heart before I was born, as I would be after I leave this world. I saw a picture of my cursive signature “Grace” and the Lord was letting me know He named me and knows my name.  My home is in His heart since before He made the world and forever.  He let me know He does not need me, nor does anyone else ultimately; He made me for the pleasure of my company, because He delights in me. This has made a powerful change in my life.  It has broken the sadness I could not shake. I have stopped emotionally “hunting” for a mother.  I am better able to say no when appropriate and to take better care of my own responsibilities. My dream life has changed for the better. The child in me has a home, an anchor in the heart of God, and that changes everything.

Emotional Pain 

… It (Mashah Ministry) is an amazing place for the Lord to show up in your life and to work on the places where you are broken.  We all have places in our lives that have brought us much emotional pain.  You could, and I have, spent years going to a therapist to find the answers to why we feel or behave the way we do sometimes.             
 
Through the Mashah Ministry, I have found God is the therapist taking you ever so gently to the hurts in your life and giving you the grace and mercy to repair your wounded heart.  Sometimes, I have had to revisit the same hurts more than once because they go so deep.  But, the Lord continues to be gentle and faithful   in releasing the brokenness and  restoring emotional health.

 
The most amazing thing about this ministry is the Presence of the Lord. He is there. He is the teacher, the healer, the counselor, and the friend.  His presence is undeniable and life changing.

Sexual Abuse

As a child I was sexually abused.  This abuse had led to a lifetime of an addictive behavior.  Through Mashah Ministry I had an encounter with Jesus Christ.  I came to know that it was NOT my fault.  He cleansed me.  It has been over a year since that ministry session and I have not struggled with the addictive behavior since that time.  I am so amazed at the power of God and what He has done in my life.

Discernment/Vows

During our last session, the Lord brought up discernment.  Not only did He deal with me about discerning when to walk away from things I take on (in the context of me working too hard), that was the main topic of discussion -- discerning when it's God's timing to take up a task and when it's His timing to let it go --     during my candidacy certification meeting!  God is so good.

And I will tell you something else, I've been praying what I remember of the ungodly vow prayer and I feel so free, I can't even describe it.

Basic Trust

A major change occurred when I received ministry for basic trust issues, realizing I had never been willing to completely forgive or trust my own parents.  Each session I experienced major breakthroughs against lies I have believed all my life.

Anxiety and the Journey from Head to Heart

I am a fairly “type A” person, and I consider it normal for me to worry a bit…However, I realized I was feeling anxious more and more often when there was absolutely nothing to feel anxious about!...

I knew about Mashah…but I did not really know what to expect.  Here is what I learned: 

  • Confidentiality is closely guarded
  • The only topic considered universally important enough to require some initial study is forgiveness. 

The Mashah process is NOT counseling; the 2 men who worked with me were trained in praying and leading me through prayers asking God if He had anything to reveal. But they were not trained in, and did not attempt to, diagnose or psychoanalyze me. 

…I never felt really sure what would happen…we asked God what issues were on my mind and which ones He would like to address.  I set the direction – or by whatever I was hearing from God – and not really by the prayer “leaders." (Please understand that I have never considered myself to be very prophetic or tuned into words from God.)  To my surprise, we settled on issues like being unpopular in Jr. High and trusting God, but not REALLY being sure He has my best interest in mind…. God communicated to me how much He does love me, and put some of these issues into perspective.  The insights were not really “new” revelation, but they were very impactful at some deep level.  I think it is another example of “the longest journey being from the head to the heart.”

Relief from Anxiety

I am a fairly "type A" person, and I consider it normal for me to worry a bit and to consider the risks in something.  I would even say this personality trait has served me well.  However, I realized I was feeling anxious more and more often when there was absolutely nothing to feel anxious about!  This was becoming unpleasant, and I wanted to deal with it.  Frankly, I was pretty sure a medical approach would work well, as all sorts of modern Americans find relief from mild anxiety with small doses of anti-depressants.  But let's see if we can avoid a drug, and if we can find any insight about an underlying cause first... 

I knew about Prayer and Care (now Mashah), and that it would be the right ministry at the Crossing to look into a problem like anxiety, but I did not really know what to expect.  Here is what I learned as I signed up and started the P & C process:
  - Confidentiality is closely guarded.
  - The only topic considered universally important enough to require some initial study is forgiveness.  I read a book on that topic, which was very good.
  - The P & C process is NOT counseling; the 2 men who worked with me were trained in praying and leading me through prayers asking God if He had anything to reveal, but they were not trained in, and did not attempt to, diagnose or psychoanalyze me.

I had 3 sessions, on Thursday nights about a month apart.  I never felt really sure what would happen, as we simply asked God what issues were on my mind and which ones He would like to address.  The direction was set by me -- or by whatever I was hearing from God -- and not really by the prayer "leaders".  (Please understand that I have never considered myself to be very prophetic or tuned into words from God.)  To my surprise, we settled on issues like being unpopular in Jr. High School, and trusting God but not REALLY being sure He has my best interest in mind...  and God communicated to me how much He does love me, and put some of these issues into perspective.   The insights were not really "new" revelation, but they were very impactful at some deep level.  I think it is another example of "the longest journey being from the head to the heart." 

By the way, I haven't felt any anxiety, when there was no reason for it, in over a month...

Self-Confidence

Self-confidence always used to be a struggle for me.  Whenever something went wrong, I felt like it was my fault.  I continually apologized, could not stand up to people with forceful personalities, and lived in fear of failing and disappointing others. 

Through Mashah and related ministry, God touched my heart and showed me that I am valuable (and competent!), that my success in life does not depend on others’ approval, and that my reasonable best, through his grace, is good enough to be accepted, celebrated, and valued in every situation.

The change has been powerful.  I am much more comfortable with myself, in relationship to others, and in relationship to God.  I am more willing to take risks and am able to stand up confidently to those who once intimidated me.  My boss even noted in a review that my increased confidence was “nothing short of amazing”.  God really can change our hearts.

Blessings and Transformation

I feel so new, so refreshed, so clean...It feels like a burden has been lifted.  It's like getting a transfusion - Like new life... 

I feel like I have a protective shield around me.  The temptations that I was unable to overcome before are no longer a problem.

Forgiveness became very real - almost tangible.  Love of the Father became more real and fear is diminishing.  I am much more aware of, and angered by sin of any degree.

I actually felt Jesus holding my hand, leading me away from sin and into my future.  The way He held my hand was powerful yet gentle. 

I see the hand of Jesus reaching out to me, to lead me to my future with Him.

The guilt, grief, shame, wounds, anger and fear had all been tucked away very carefully but began to bear fruit in panic and anxiety attacks, and an over-all feeling of sadness and fatigue which lasted for months.  [Through receiving ministry]…an enormous amount of emotion and pain has been released.  Now, anxiety comes very seldom, even in stressful situations.  Now, when I awaken in the night, or early in the mornings my heart is not pounding, but I am in peace.  Thank you, Lord.

God Becoming So Real

…it seemed every time I got closer to God, even after being born again, hurt and sorrow would follow…I cried out in anger to God. During a Mashah session I shared my hurts. I realized after a tremendous spiritual experience, “A revelation of the Father’s love.”…..God is presently helping me with trust and freedom. Phenomenal things are happening. God is becoming so “real” to me and my prayer life has taken off…

God freed me from addiction to prescription medication!  God freed me to love myself for who I am – His creation…

Freedom from Lies

A major change occurred when I received ministry for basic trust issues, realizing I had never been willing to completely forgive or trust my own parents.  Each session I experienced major breakthroughs against lies I have believed all my life.

What to Expect at Mashah - one receiver's story 

I signed up for Prayer and Care (now Mashah) Ministry to formally continue the inner healing process that the Lord started in my life two years ago.  I wanted the covering and direction of a trained staff of people who believe in the wholeness that Jesus died to give me: spiritual, physical and emotional restoration.  I wanted teaching directly from the Holy Spirit, as well as a trained staff.  I also wanted accountability and prayer support.  I wanted to address those areas that would hinder the flow of my ministering to people through prayer, to deal with “my stuff”, so that I could determine what was “me”, what was the voice of the enemy and what was the voice of God more clearly. 

The only reservations I had about coming to Prayer and Care was that I knew it might be rough dealing with some of the hurts in my life; whether it was situations or people that had hurt or disappointed me, including myself.  Yet I found that God ministers out of love and grace.  It was only my fears and doubts that became obstacles and they were overcome during the sessions.

The process has been one of pealing away more and more layers of the “onion skins” that surround my heart.  I have learned that I will never be perfect until I meet Jesus face to face, yet God wants to remove as many obstacles as I am willing to give up.  He does this by bringing to my attention those lies I have accepted as truth, the fears I have held onto and been in bondage to, and the areas of doubt I have walked cautiously in.  God has replaced these areas with the Truth that is written in His Word, His perfect love that casts out all fear, and with an increased desire to walk more confidently as the person He created me to be.

I have come to understand, “who” it is that lives inside of me.  Jesus has become more real. There are some areas that I know I am healed in.  Then there are other areas that I have received some healing, yet know that the main root has not yet been tapped.  Because of this process, I am willing to go deeper.  I have experienced and know that it is the Holy Spirit that brings to mind the truth of what is in my heart and what needs to be healed!  I have been very surprised at what He has shown me!  Things I did not even know were there!  My focus was changed from blaming other people to what is the truth of what is going on in me.  I have been blessed by the grace, love, and forgiveness of God.  I have learned to forgive myself, others, and walk as a healthier Christian.  I have learned tools such as effective prayers and ways of waiting on God that I can apply to myself at home and use in ministering to others.

The fruit I have seen in my life has been in the area of making the choice to choose mercy over judgment.  I have experienced God’s love and mercy in my own life through my Prayer and Care sessions, which has caused me to extend that same love and mercy to others.  I have learned to stop judging others and myself.  I have learned to give others a break, as well as I myself, by praying for God’s mercy over every situation and leaving the judging and the outcome up to God.  This is something I have to choose to do, it rarely “feels” good, but in the end God always shows me the fruit.

I have learned that the bottom line of every hurtful situation comes down to repentance.  It is that repentance, owning my part of every situation that brings forgiveness and healing.  I cannot be healed of those things that I have not recognized, accepted and repented of my part.  Freedom comes through the cross.  Jesus’ perspective of things is always more loving and forgiving that I could ever be. 

I have learned that Jesus wants me free!  It is His desire and the reason that He went to the cross so that I could be free from sin and have fellowship with the father.  Free from my own sin, free from the sin that has been placed upon me, willingly and unwillingly…Prayer and Care has taught me how to go to the Father on my own and receive healing.  I would recommend this inner healing process to all who want to walk in the fullness of what Jesus died to give us and for those who want to learn how to go to God on their own and receive healing and then give His love away.

Isaiah 40:31 “But those who wait upon the Lord, shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles. They shall run and not grow weary, they shall walk and not faint.”

What to Expect at Mashah - another receiver's story

I signed up for the Prayer and Care (now Mashah) ministry because I wanted to be released from the burdens of my heart that are keeping me from doing God’s work.  Everything I have tried, praying, small group ministry, Concert of Prayer, has been very helpful in moving me forward in my walk with the Lord, but hasn’t been enough.  I felt I needed to go deeper and more personal into revealing the impurities of my spirit.

I must admit I was somewhat scared that the people ministering to me would find me ungodly and therefore repulsive in their eyes.  I found just the opposite.  In my weakness, they found strength and beauty.  I was concerned that what I would learn about myself would not be kept confidential.  Again, they laid this fear to rest, and surprisingly, I don’t care any longer.  I am only concerned now with how God sees me.

We start the process with kind of a break the ice social conversation.  After this we get down to work.  The ministry team and I start by clearing the air and the room of any demonic forces that would prevent a conversation from occurring   between God and me.  This is done through reciting a commanding prayer.  I, with the prayer team’s assistance, then ask a series of questions that ask the Lord to reveal insights into the burdens of your heart.  Once the insights are revealed, more specific and probing questions are asked to search for the root of the issue.  When the root is found, effort is made to pull the root out through seeking healing and forgiveness.  Sometimes we seek forgiveness from God and sometime we seek it from ourselves.  The ministry team is not invasive in this process at all.  They act more like a pipeline leading the insights to a place of healing.  Be prepared for surprises.

For those of you involved in small groups, you know there are times when the insights you gain from the wisdom and openness of others can shed light on issues in your own life.  Think of this as a tooth cleaning.  Prayer and care, goes deeper into the levels of your pain.   Through a series of questions, deeper and deeper burdens are revealed.  Think of this as a root canal.  We don’t like it while it is happening, but it is necessary to bring us to wholeness. 

For me God’s love is amazing.  He has helped to reveal deep rooted lies about myself that for decades I have believed as truths.  These lies have been holding me back from truly loving him and from loving others.  I am learning to recognize the efforts of the devil in trying to divert me from God’s work.  I am developing ways to protect myself against thought patterns that would divert me from my walk with the Lord.

The bottom line.  I am learning how to love again.  I have only had three or four sessions, but I know I am three or four steps closer to wholeness.  Thank you, Jesus.

 

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